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Wednesday, November 2nd 2005

2:28 PM

Insecurities

  • Music: Sarah Kelly

Dude the insecurity in friendships is blowing my mind… I have this new role in my friendships that I’m not used too. When did this stuff happen? LOL (Before y’all freak on me, I happen to be secure in y’alls love of me, not what I’m talking about.)  

Okay, insecurity, I’m used to that. Lived with it my whole life. But I was secure in that insecurity, if that makes sense? I knew what life held and I knew I was insecure about it. But I still knew what life held. So I was secure in the insecurity. There was a status-quo. I knew what was expected of me. Even with my weird upbringing, there was a status-quo to it.

Who I am in God… well you know the strange thing is I am more secure in that (because He is teaching me all about that.) but I’m also more insecure. Before I just never thought about it. I avoided thinking about stuff like that. It was just better to leave it alone, you know?

The whole deal with being more open and not suppressing my emotions… that is why I’ve been able to finally have friendships that are worth anything, I know this, but it’s been so much in such a short period of time that I’m still trying to process it all. (Yes, yes I know I’m a freak. Get over it.)

Writing… Lord we aren’t even going to talk about that.

The last year and especially the last couple months, God’s just shaken up my world big time. So that’s where I’m at today. Not much point in this post.

Blessings Y'all!

9 spoken.

Posted by Camy Tang:

Secure in my insecurity? Yeah, I get that. Hugs, hun.
Camy
Thursday, November 3rd 2005 @ 1:08 AM

Posted by Robin:

I think we all get secure in our little life's dealings, no matter what they are. I'm secure in my "hermitness", but unfortunately, I have to branch out of it on occasion. That makes me nervous because I'm secure in my neurosis of being alone. LOL Sheesh, don't let Ronie know, she'll analyze me and that'll open up a WHOLE nother chapter in her schooling!
Thursday, November 3rd 2005 @ 8:59 AM

Posted by :-)Ronie:

Dr. Ronie is now accepting new patients, and those with repeated delusional states (no, Robin, I didn't mention your name). :)o:):P
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