Frustrated. Oh so frustrated. LOL I’m so frustrated I even wrote a really bad poem about it. And no you don’t get to see it… did you not read what I said? It’s BAAAAAAD.

God has gifted me with some amazing people in my life. Their talent for writing is mind blowing. We are talking so good that I wouldn’t be surprised if 4 of them had contracts before the next conference. (What does this have to do with being frustrated? Hold your freaking horses; let me toot my friend’s horns.) And trust me when their books come out… you will be reading all about it in here and I’ll hound your butts to buy the books. Yeah granted they have more to learn, but as a writer if you ever stop learning you might as well quit, what’s the point? But they are “there.” Ready to be pubbed “there.”

On to my frustration. I’m not “there.” Nowhere near “there.” I’ve come a long way in the last year. I acknowledge that. I’ve learned a lot. But there are things that I can’t grasp and prob never will. Oh, just to clarify before you people post this… I’m not comparing my talent to anyone else’s. I’m well aware that He gave us totally different gifts. Mine is just as unique as theirs is. And before you think this too… I’m not afraid of hard work. (Despite the fact that I keep telling y’all I’m lazy.)

So I’m working on this chicklit. It’s actually not that bad. It’s not “there” but it isn’t bad. But I hate it. The other thing I have to work on I love. I already know back-story on all the characters. I never know that stuff. It’s good. It’s going to be great. But I’m pretty sure I’m not ready to write it, to do it justice. So I work on the chicklit when things don’t conspire against me. (Trip, msword not working, funk… which btw really cool how the funk went away last night. God is so cool.)So I plod along on the chicklit and wonder am I right? Did I hear from God when I thought He showed me I was scared to rewrite it?

There are a lot of things in my life... that I’m not "there" yet... and I know that I will be and I can see it. But with writing, I don’t know that I will and I can't see it.

So here I sit. Frustrated. Questioning. Speaking of questioning… these words were spoken to me tonight, “Stop questioning the gift God gave you and rejoice!”

This book… all of them that I’m going to write is going to take more than I have. It’s going to have to be God. Because I’m greatly lacking here. Weak. I can’t do it on my own.

Shawn McDonald

Take My Hand

Take my hand to the promise land
And on You I want to stand
‘Cause I cannot do it on my own
You're what I need and I need to be
Right by Your side ‘cause I cannot hide
Lord, I know that I need You
Na na na na na na na na na, I need You
Na na na na na na na na na, I need You
Without You I'm so alone
I am weak but You are strong
You pick me up when I'm falling down
And I am crying
Out to You inside of my heart
I need You, Lord, oh so, for the part
I want You to have my life, Jesus
I fall to my knees
And I'm begging You, please, oh, Lord
Won't You change me
Make me new from the inside out
I want to shout out Your name

You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail. Isaiah 58:11

Blessings Y’all!

*And for the record, I'm not as frustrated as I was earlier tonight.But these are things I'm still feeling. I'm not sure how to get rid of it.

 

Sweet Heather, here's the thing....NONE of us ever feel like our stuff is "there"...EVER. Oh, we may write a scene and think "this is good", even to ourselves, but if we go back and read it a couple of days later, we'll think "is it really good, or am I just being hopeful here?".....it's the life of a writer. Yes, even "big" name authors think the same thing when they finish a book. Excuse me, that's why there are EDITORS! LOL

Frustration...oh, how I deal with that on a daily basis...I'm frustrated because my kids get out early and cut into my writing time, frustrated because I have to clean my house and can't write...am frustrated because what I'm writing is NOT coming out like I envision it in my head. Frustration come with the job. So does having to face the awful "p" word, of which I was born without. Funny how God called me to THIS business, when everything is hurry up and wait ! LOL

About the chicklit & what else you have. Here's a little tip....write what is BURNING in your heart, RIGHT NOW. There will be time when you're published that you HAVE to work on something in particular and get to the deadline. For now, write what's on your heart! If the chicklit isn't speaking to you yet, it may never, or it might be much later. This comes from someone who has two completed ms sitting in a cabinet, never to see the light of day again! TRUST ME. I hate them. Don't know WHAT I was thinking when I wrote them. But you know what, I learned a lot as I wrote them, learned a lot of what NOT to do, and refined some of the craft. NOTHING we write is a waste, if only we learn what we DON'T want to write. Okay, yeah, one of those hidden ms is a women's fiction and I truly learned where my passion is after finishing it....suspense! LOL

Chin up, my friend, and write what God's put to burn in your heart. If we all do that, then in His eyes, we're already "there"!

:)See, girl? Same thing I said, Robin said. GMTA. Just write what's on your heart. You are growing just like the rest of us. I'm so proud of you for writing through this.

Now...I posted. *GRINS* Can I hide out, now? o:)

I was on my way over here to kick your butt to update, the way you kicked mine (I've posted now--service with a smile! :-p), but you already have.

Heather, I totally feel what you're writing about in this post. And I'm going to second everybody with the write what's burning you up now, even though you're not sure if you can do it justice. I'm in the middle of that with what I'm writing now. I'm so scared I'm going to screw this book up because I don't have the ability to pull it off right. But I'm learning so much in the writing of it. And I'll never get the ability to pull it off if I don't start writing.

I have a feeling that this comment is going to be totally disjointed when I re-read it. But just hear my heart here, Heather. And read the verse I posted over on my blog (Proverbs 4:18).

YO WOMAN!!! I agree with Robin. Write what's burning in your heart. Remember how hard it was to get the Chicklit done? Well, my philosophy is that if I feel like writing something particular today, I take full advantage and just do it. Doesn't matter what I was supposed to be writing.

Frustration is part of being a writer, huh. So welcome to the club!

Hugs,
Camy

That was supposed to be "hun" not "huh." Because you are not a "huh." :)

Camy

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