Seeing as it is three am… it’s already officially my birthday. Don’t worry I’m not going to have any deep introspective “I’m old” kinda posts… not even going to have a freak out moment about my age. All though I did watch my mother earlier have a little freak out of her own. It was one of those omg my baby is old kinda things. It amused me. (Yes, I’m twisted like that, things amuse me that shouldn’t… you should see the things I wrote this week that amused me. LOL) Brother and sil came over today to give me my gift for my birthday. That was cool.

Speaking of writing. (Yes, we were speaking of writing, go up a couple sentences and see.) I’m rewriting the chicklit finally. (Yes, I should have done it already… bite me.) Got through the first three chapters this week and I’m having fun. Writing is actually fun.

I was talking to Ronie earlier this week and she was asking me what she could pray for me… well you know me, I am hemmed and hawed, God forbid I show need, you know? LOL Finally, she had a light bulb moment of her own. She told me that the Lord had showed her what to pray for me. So she is praying the wrath of God on me…

Oh wait… that’s not right, LOL, something about passion being stoked in me about my own writing. Which on one hand kinda freaks me out but on the other it’s really cool because I already see some of God’s hand at work in my writing.

(And yes for those that are curious, God did slap me upside the head several times this week on different issues.)

Also earlier this week, I was talking to someone about something that was going on with me, and I downplayed what was going on, like I usually do, she went on to talk, and I swear God asked me “why did you do that? You know she wants to know what’s going on with you, why won’t you tell her?” So I said wait and told her what was really going on. You know what she said to me?  “Oh, I'm so glad you were honest about that...shows you're human, after all. I was beginning to wonder if you were an angel.”   I snorted at the angel bit but then the rest of it sunk in. “Shows you’re human, after all.” Sobered me right up. How often do I downplay/cover up everything and people think I’m not human… perfect? I’m so far from that. She was actually the first of three people that God prodded me to be honest with that night. I need to be more open. Learn to trust. Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying I need to be a wide open book to everyone I come in contact with but I certainly need to be more open with those that I love. Evidently, I have trust issues too. (LOL I know, y’all are saying, well duh!) That’s something God was working on this week.

Remember that thing I surrendered that was so huge? (LOL Okay it was a really small thing that for some reason I let get so big that it screwed up my life for many years.) God prompted me to share it with three people this week… all in the same day I might add. And with each telling of the story the more free I am and the smaller it gets.

So back to my birthday. I’m 27 today. Age doesn’t freak me out. this is actually a really good age for me. I’m loving it. I’m loving discovering myself on this journey of self-discovery the Lord has set me on.

Blessings y’all!